what is this
feeling
this nagging
inside me?
I don’t want to
be a whore 
but being a
good girl 
all the time
gets lonely
so I chat and
flirt a lot
collecting
conversations 
like flowers in
a garden
sometimes my
arms 
gets overloaded
and 
they fall by
the wayside
but that’s how
things are
everything is
transient
even lust and
love
we all know the
path 
to love  is a battlefield 
littered with
severed limbs
bleeding hearts
and 
unraveled
intestines
that can’t go
back in
I have felt its
sting
and have been
the cause
of such gruesome
injuries
I ask where did
I go wrong
and why the
ones you really
like never come
back
yet my hearts
want to believe
the One is just
around the corner
but I have been
to too many
corners and
left disappointed