what is this
feeling
this nagging
inside me?
I don’t want to
be a whore
but being a
good girl
all the time
gets lonely
so I chat and
flirt a lot
collecting
conversations
like flowers in
a garden
sometimes my
arms
gets overloaded
and
they fall by
the wayside
but that’s how
things are
everything is
transient
even lust and
love
we all know the
path
to love is a battlefield
littered with
severed limbs
bleeding hearts
and
unraveled
intestines
that can’t go
back in
I have felt its
sting
and have been
the cause
of such gruesome
injuries
I ask where did
I go wrong
and why the
ones you really
like never come
back
yet my hearts
want to believe
the One is just
around the corner
but I have been
to too many
corners and
left disappointed
Love is a battlefield and maybe the One may or may not be around ~ I say enjoy life just being yourself ~
ReplyDeleteI liked the part about the unraveled intestines. I haven't heard it ever expressed like that before. So you haven't got everything wrong. The part about collecting too many conversations that they fall by the wayside was pretty good also.
ReplyDeleteLove will grow when least expected.... but searching for it is miserable... maybe cease to search and have fun is a good advice.
ReplyDeleteLove is not consolation it is light ... In time we learn to unravel its truth.
ReplyDeleteI remember those days of searching and always not finding...our finding the wrong one...ironically, sometimes the One finds you with no searching whatsoever!
ReplyDeleteI totally relate to the collecting of conversations to keep the loneliness at bay, being lonely isn't nice just tolerable it seems. I never believed I could find the real one after all the fakes but the real one, one day he found me, through my resistance and mission to stay untouched he persisted and that's when you know that's the one that will last, I so loved your poetry , its a woman's heart speaking with truth love and hope, always hold on to that hope ok.
ReplyDeleteInteresting despair on lost loves and continued searches.
ReplyDeleteBTW: I think there is a typo here:
"all the time gets lonelyp"
Such disenchantment and despair! Perhaps cease the search and enjoy the journey is the key!
ReplyDeletewe all know the path
ReplyDeleteto love is a battlefield
Touche!