Thursday, August 17, 2017

I wanted you

I always watched you from afar
like a star that I could not reach
how I wanted to be in your light
and be the one in your heart

I wanted you to look at me
like you looked at her, who was not me
how my heart ached every night
that you were unattainable

then the stars somehow aligned
and we crossed paths once more
this time I caught your eyes

now in your arms, made up dreams
becoming reality, so I close my eyes
to imprint this to memory

Monday, August 14, 2017

it was in a dream

it was in a dream
I found your warm eyes 
taking in mine making 
my heart burn inside
it was in those dreams
I fell in love with you
if only those memories
could have transferred
into real life I would
have been happy


Thursday, August 10, 2017

window shades

to the world I am
just an ordinary girl
who works everyday
paying her bills and
follows all the rules
but when I get home
I pull down my
opaque window shades
I remove my mask
revealing my true face
I released pinned up hair
shed my suit of armor
as the clothes slide off
my hidden roses spring
out into full bloom
I become the person
I was meant to be
one who needs not
explain or apologize
to anyone for being me


Photo Courtesy of pixabay.comPexels

Monday, August 7, 2017

real

I want something real
and true
with no filter
no photoshop
something I can hold
to feel its weight
smell its scent
something I can see
with my naked eyes
not behind glass screens

I want something real
and true
but it’s getting harder
to find such things
in a world that
is becoming more
virtual than actual
and slowly
I am losing hope
in such things

Thursday, August 3, 2017

you once had

you once had the key to my heart
when I gave you my single rose
winter came and took you away
my heart turned to snow and ice


Monday, July 31, 2017

when you fear love

I want to touch
his inner soul
and look deep
into his ocean eyes
but a part of me
is afraid to allow
myself to make
that plunge
my heart won’t
let me dive into
those waves
like last time
when I almost
drowned


Thursday, July 27, 2017

I have something to say

I have something to say
but I doubt anyone will hear it
it is hard to get my soft voice
to rise above the sound of
loud clashing and shouting
everyone trying to get in their
say as my tiny voice gets lost
among the tsunami waves


Monday, July 24, 2017

can we not let this night end?

can we not let this night end
and bottle this memory forever
forget reality and just pretend
can we not let this night end
the last hours we can extend
it will be our finest endeavor
can we not let this night end
and bottle this memory forever


"Vernazza sunset" 
Photo by Anders JildĂ©n on Unsplash


Thursday, July 20, 2017

summer evening

Photo by Chris Karidis on Unsplash


a summer evening
our boat drifts under the moon
in peaceful silence



Monday, July 17, 2017

flicker

I try to hold on to
hope that I will find
you before it's too late
but every passing day
my light flickers like
a distant lighthouse
trying to stay steady
so you may find me
before the night when
my light goes out

Thursday, July 13, 2017

heart of glass

a heart of glass
shattered into one
thousand pieces
a soft hand
with delicate fingers
piece it back
together like
a jigsaw puzzle
glue in hand
sealing those
jagged lines
make the heart
form into
one whole piece
so it may beat
once more


Monday, July 10, 2017

summer never lasts

summer never lasts
long enough
the days go by too past
the nights never wait
for us to collect stars
it flashes us her smile
and in an instant
she is gone

"Summer Light" by Susanne Nilsson
Courtesy of all-free-download.com


Thursday, July 6, 2017

first kiss, second kiss

the first time
was a hurried thing
lips clashed against
one another like
waves upon rocks
but the second time
was much better
the electric touch of
your lips upon mine
made it all better

Monday, July 3, 2017

betrayal

I believed every single word
you whispered into my ear
each smile you gifted me
under the morning sun
I believed every promise
that you would never leave
but time revealed true colors
when you removed your mask
and showed me your true face

Thursday, June 29, 2017

summer kiss

summer kisses
always taste better
in the moonlight

summer love
make hearts grow
fonder under the sun

summer days
always too short
and never last enough


Monday, June 26, 2017

touch me, tease me

touch me
with your melodies
let them fall against my skin
tease me
with hypnotic kisses
bringing me into a dream
teach me
those native words
that spring from your tongue
tell me
the words to our song
that we will sing for eternity

but

don’t touch me
if you intend to leave scars
behind when you burn me
don’t tease me
with sweet kisses you
you will collect back at sunrise
don’t teach me
the ways to your heart
when you plan to give it away
don’t tell me
this is forever when
it will only last for one night

Thursday, June 22, 2017

you promised me the moon and stars

you promised me the moon and stars
and I wanted to believe every word
but I knew in the end you would fall
and naively I listened to your hypnotic
voice falling for those seductive eyes
as you promised me the moon and stars

and I should have known better
this was not my first time yet
like a schoolgirl I fell for every line
I was hungry for love and was drawn
to you like a moth to flame when
you promised me the moon and stars

now I stand at the edge of the sea
watching my heart drift into the deep
once again you fly into those sunsets
that always leave me cold in the end
I wanted to believe every word when
you promised me the moon and stars



Photo by Nathan Anderson
courtesy of unsplash.com


Monday, June 19, 2017

peppermint

in her leather purse
she always had peppermints
for a variety of remedies and
I knew where she kept them
even when I had too many
she would never scold me
but now she’s gone leaving
me with warm memories
of that nostalgic scent


Thursday, June 15, 2017

land of broken hearts

on a deserted island
I sit watching the sun
rise and set every day
as wounds in my heart
begin to heal

in solitude I try to
rebuild my soul within
torn down and shredded
by the daggers of
a heartbreaker

some nights I dream
about leaving this place
on a ship passing by
carrying me back home –
back to you

but I’ve been here too long
I’m getting use to solitude
the safety of this island
sparing me the risks
of falling in love again

I no longer look out
for that ship in the sea
memories of home fade
day and night I linger here
where pain can't reach me

Monday, June 12, 2017

tender kisses

your tender kisses
were sweeter than his
that night

I, lost in blisses
just did not listen
to right

now all my wishes
are lost and missing
in sight



Thursday, June 8, 2017

silent protest

as you held my hand
we took our last stand
for us

and our own plan
was to save our land
but thus

we could not withstand
and force to disband
sans fuss


- Written for dVerse Meeting the Bar - Lai It On! prompt where we are asked to write a lai poem, consisting of nine lines using "a" and "b" rhymes.  Come join the fun.



Monday, June 5, 2017

storm within

there is a storm
brewing inside her
she can hardly
contained it
it threatens to
overflow her veins
and spill out her
eyes and heart
as blood tears
when she sees how far
the world has fallen
into dark chaos
and shadows of hate



Thursday, June 1, 2017

gift

you were the gift
that kept on giving
I become complacent
thinking you would
always be there
until you were gone
I realized how much
you meant to me
and Now I wish
I had told you then
instead of holding
the words within


"Rose in the hands" by George Hodan
Courtesy of all-free-download.com




Monday, May 29, 2017

broken

I tried to keep myself
all put together
but things happen
leaving me with scars
causing imperfections
on my face and skin
yet still I am who I am
flaws and all and
I can still be loved
despite broken lines
upon my soul



Thursday, May 25, 2017

spring mornings

I hear the birds chirping
outside my window
their melody awakening
my senses each morning
and it is that sound
that makes the mornings
easier knowing that
warmer days will arrive
shortly and summer
evenings will be spent
watching beautiful
sunsets in your arms


Monday, May 22, 2017

when I hear your voice

the sound of your voice
always takes me back
to when I was madly
in love with you
each time the timber
of your voice hits my ears
I forget all about the 
things that went wrong 
and only reminisce 
about the good times




Thursday, May 18, 2017

will you?

will you remember me
when I walk out the door?
will you think of me
on warm summer days?
will you want to hear my
voice under midnight stars?

or will you forget me
as easily as we forget snowflakes?
will visions of my face diminish
from your memory in time?
will you pass me by on the street
like a stranger in the night?


Forget-me-not flowers.  
Photo by Yana Ray
Courtesy of all-free-download.com

Monday, May 15, 2017

Cemetery visits on Mother's Day


Photo by Brigitte Werner
Courtesy of all-free-download.com

Every Spring I come out
and lay flowers on graves 
for Mother’s Day
I have done it for so long
that I have lost track of
the number of years
that have gone by

I’m sure the flowers
are not as lovely
as the ones before
yet I keep up the vigil
and soon I will add names 
to my flower list
for Mother’s Day





Thursday, May 11, 2017

forever waiting

forever
was how long it seemed
that I waited for you
to sweep me off my feet
and into that grand 
fairytale castle on the hill

forever
was how long I waited
from sunrises to sunsets
still believing that day
would come when dreams
would become realities

but forever
lasted too long for me
I lost all hope especially
when I removed rose colored
glasses and saw you for
the man you truly were








Monday, May 8, 2017

in the dark

our whispers
echo off walls
secret rendezvous
under midnight stars
hidden love letters
in mysterious boxes
it was all good
for awhile
until one of us
wanted to drag
the other
into the light
and that was
the breaking point
in this secret affair




Thursday, May 4, 2017

returning home

I went so far off chasing the clouds
that never stood still
and now I return to the place I once
desired to burn down
but it will be here that I reconnect
to the person I was before
I went after unattainable rainbows


Thatched cottage. Photo by Kaz
Courtesy of all-free-download.com


Monday, May 1, 2017

cologne

it was the aroma of
sandalwood cologne
that pulled me
as he hooked his
claws into my skin
my insides burned
with the thought
of his touch
and I knew then
I was in too deep
but a part of me
did not mind


Thursday, April 27, 2017

regret

I should have held
onto you a bit longer
I should have told
you what I felt
I should have laid
my heart on the table
I should have spoken
the words on my tongue

But I was too afraid
of your rejection
I was too afraid that
you would laugh at me
I was too afraid you
wouldn’t love me back
I was too afraid to release
those words on my tongue

And now I am full of regret
that I let you slip away
and now I wonder about
what could have been
and now I sit here pondering
on how to move on
and now I write love poems
instead of living them


 - Written in response to Writers' Digest Poetic Aside April 2017 PAD Challenge Day 26 in which one is tasked to write a poem about regret.

Monday, April 24, 2017

we stood still

we stood still by the river
waiting for you to appear
upon the hills
my heart waiting to burst
at the sight of you and
he was holding back
squeals of delight
but you never appeared
beyond the hills and
soon night encased us

"The lonesome river" by Greg Westfall
Courtesy of all-free-download.com 


- Written for dVerse Quadrille #31 "still".  Come join in on the fun.  


Thursday, April 20, 2017

postcard

I send you a postcard
with sunny skies
and white sands
telling you I’m
having a good time
but in reality
I miss you terribly
wish you were here
instead of back there
 the oceans I placed
between us only makes
the yearning in my heart
grow deeper

Photo by Christopher Flynn
Courtesy of unsplash.com


Monday, April 17, 2017

dancing palms

"Palm Tree" by Anna Langova
Courtesy of all-free-download.com


to a hidden beat
the palm trees swayed side to side
like they were dancing


- Written for International Haiku Poetry Day.  Inspired by WD's Poetic Aside 2017 PAD Challenge Day 17: dance poem

Thursday, April 13, 2017

black sheep

I always stood out
like a black dot
on white linen tablecloth
never fitting into the puzzle
that my family tried to maintain

I’m sure they loved me
in their own special way
but I know they rather
have me fit in those family
portraits instead of sticking out

but love is eternal
love is nonjudgmental
love is all consuming
no matter what I know
they will love unconditionally



"Black Feathers" by George Hodan
Courtesy of all-free-download.com


Monday, April 10, 2017

drizzle of tears

at first the tears began as drizzle
until I could no longer hold back
the swollen floodgates of tears
they poured out like monsoon rains
until my body and heart was depleted
of its light and now only sleep
can restore my drained soul


Thursday, April 6, 2017

beginnings and endings


beginnings are like
spring days when
beauty springs from
blossoming flowers
and the path of warm
days lie way ahead

but endings are like
late summer sunsets
when you know autumn
will soon arrive and
these carefree days
have come to an end




     
Photo by tpsdave
              Courtesy of  all-free-download.com          

    

Photo by Petr Kratochvil
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Monday, April 3, 2017

shadows

Photo by Jez Timms
Courtesy of unsplash.com


we played in shadows
under the belief
that it would never
come to light
but once I stepped out
of that shadowy place
all facades shattered
like glass


Thursday, March 30, 2017

love of my life?

he was the love of my life
but also the source of all my pain
because I could never have him
he was the far-flung star in the sky
that I could never reach and
the gem placed upon pedestals
that I could never live up to


Monday, March 27, 2017

red balloon

who would have thought
a red balloon could cause
such strife between siblings
but it did and we unleashed
our childish fury as we
both claimed the other
as the false storyteller
much to the chagrin of mom
who gave us a stern punishment



Photo courtesy of all-free-download.com



Thursday, March 23, 2017

feeling

what is this feeling
this nagging inside me?
I don’t want to be a whore
but being a good girl
all the time gets lonely
so I chat and flirt a lot
collecting conversations
like flowers in a garden
sometimes my arms
gets overloaded and
they fall by the wayside
but that’s how things are
everything is transient
even lust and love
we all know the path
to love  is a battlefield
littered with severed limbs
bleeding hearts and
unraveled intestines
that can’t go back in
I have felt its sting
and have been the cause
of such gruesome injuries
I ask where did I go wrong
and why the ones you really
like never come back
yet my hearts want to believe
the One is just around the corner
but I have been to too many
corners and left disappointed




Monday, March 20, 2017

the morning after

she never intended
to fall into this
but his net caught her
like a fisherman
capturing a mermaid

he was not looking
only wanted to connect
to fill the void that was
eating away his spirit
leaving him so cold

slowly with seductive words
and soft electric touches
the hot desire drew them
into warm embraces and
midnight honey kisses

at early sunrise
they found themselves
in unfamiliar territory
knowing the clock
could not be turned back

Thursday, March 16, 2017

as good as dead

I was as good as dead
when he walked into the room that night
he took the breath out of my lungs
and all good reason escaped my brain
he was the light to my yearning flame
and the guiding star to my doom




Monday, March 13, 2017

He

he has awaken feelings deep inside 
that I thought were long dead
whether it’s love or lust 
I really do not care 
for he tastes like spring rain
and smells like summer sun
making my body hum to 
the beat of his drumming heart

Thursday, March 9, 2017

glass walls

he was drawn to me
like a moth to a flame
pressing against walls 
that I built long ago
now threatening to
come tumbling down 

he spoke poetic words
in a seductive voice
about my caramel skin
warm as a Carolina sun
lips sweet like mangos
from the Caribbean 

and my core wanted it –
to touch his inner flame
and feel alive again 
but my hesitant heart
still held onto memories
of broken promises 

my mind questioned
whether this was all real
or was it all a dream
that won’t last the night
and will diminish
into dust at sunrise 

I pressed against the glass
wanting to shatter it
into a million pieces 
yet I still wanted its
protection it had given
me all these years

Monday, March 6, 2017

Vibrant pink lotus flower.
Photo by fancycrave.com
Courtesy of all-free-download.com

from darkness
she rose above
the grave she
buried herself in
when she lost her way

breaking through 
the dirt she breathed 
in the free air
the dawn greeted
her eyes to the light
she had forsaken

more beautiful now
she walked towards
the sun waiting for her
with welcoming arms
rivers beckoning her
to remove the grime and
reveal her internal light

Thursday, March 2, 2017

once again

soon it will be May
the month of waking
the flowers will bloom
from the April rains
I will find your eyes
looking into mine
and just like before
you will steal my heart
I will forget all of
old broken promises
and cold lonely nights
of I spent in winter pasts
I will try not to think
about how you will
eventually leave me
when the autumn leaves
begin to turn and fall

Monday, February 27, 2017

nighttime giggles

she could hear the giggles
coming from the dark room
knowing full well they
would not fall asleep so fast
it brought back forgotten
memories when she and her
sibling would giggle under
the night stars not so long
ago when time stood still

- Written for dVerse Quadrille #27 in which we are tasked to write a quadrille poem containing the word "giggle".  Come join in on the fun.

Thursday, February 23, 2017

I will be a lady

I will be a lady
and you will betray me
in the end
because you are still
looking for clandestine stars
and the rush from lustful
fantasies that I cannot fulfill

I will be a lady
even after you are gone
I will sit at my table
sipping tea while you
chase after the sun that
was never meant for you

I will be a lady
even after you shatter
my heart like a vase
and I will piece it back
together eventually



Monday, February 20, 2017

One February Night

I was a cold February night in the city.  The sun had set and the stars were coming out to illuminate the piled up snow.  Yet on this night, in a second floor bedroom of an old row house, you and I spent some quality time.  I sat by your beside as we chatted about various things – life, weather, God and regrets.  You even hinted at your past drug use, which I knew about, but allowed you to tell it in your own words.  Holding your pale hand, I took in this quiet moment, for we both knew that time was not on our side.  I could have been somewhere else having fun or at home watching mindless TV.  Instead I was here with you.  Despite the years we spent apart, all the missed birthdays and holidays, there was no gift as valuable as this night spent with you.  For one April spring day, you took your last breath and I was left with only memories.

under winter skiers
twinkling stars whisper secrets
to a humble moon

- Written for dVerse Haibun Monday - The Best Things in Life Are Free, where we are asked to write a haibun poem something free or priceless we have experienced.  I'm not sure why but I wrote about a night where I spent some time with my uncle, who had terminal cancer.  It was the only time we spent totally alone without anyone else around before his demise two months later.  


Thursday, February 16, 2017

in colors

brown
was the color my first love’s eyes
smooth like milk chocolate
kisses sweeter than golden honey

red
was the color of my swollen lips
after kissing you under pale
white stars and a full silver moon

blue
was the shade of your shirt
when you took me in your arms
as I cried out my crystal tears

black
is now the hue of my heart
since you left me in the gray mist
to fade into a haunting ghost




Monday, February 13, 2017

ghosts

I thought I had buried
my past deep in a grave
but sometimes at night
those ghosts appear
outside my window looking
in with ghastly faces
every time I try to break
free towards the light
my past pulls me back
into the dark

Photo by Tertia Van Rensburg
Courtesy of all-free-download.com


- Written for dVerse Quadrille #26 in which we are asked to write a 44 word poem that includes the word "ghost".  

Thursday, February 9, 2017

looking

I’m looking for someone
to stop me dead in my tracks
make me look twice, thrice
or maybe even four times
become a fantasy in my eyes
open doorways in my mind
ignite a fire inside my veins
blow my mind a thousand ways
I’m looking for someone –
perhaps that person is you
please say you’re still out there
and looking for me too


Tuesday, February 7, 2017

kamikaze

he came
like a kamikaze
into my view
everything else
became a blur
shaken, I tried
to keep my head
above the waves
but your whiskey
smile got to me
every time




Monday, February 6, 2017

under twilight

San Diego.  Photo by Robert Lamb
Courtesy of unsplash.com


under a twilight sky
she someone lost her way
and became entangled in 
a mysterious web

she held onto her heart
as the rest of herself lost
all of its purity and turn
to midnight black

she wanted to save herself
when she met his eyes
she wanted to believe there
was still good inside her

but it was too late for her
under that twilight sky
darkness took over and
turned her heart to stone


Thursday, February 2, 2017

hello blues

hello blues
you came back
to see me?
ready to play
another melody?
are you here
to collect sighs
and tears for
your tip jar?
how about you
and I just sit
by this piano
and write sad
love songs until
our dying days

"Piano Keys" by Vera Kratochvil
Courtesy of all-free-download.com





Tuesday, January 31, 2017

pink elephant

it was the thing
that mom told us
we should not
speak about
out loud
the pink elephant
in the room
and we did not
understand why
it had to be a secret
when it was such
a natural part of
being a woman


"The Elephant in the Room" by All Saunders
Courtesy of Ally Art

- Inspired by Ally Saunders  artwork "The Elephant in the Room".  


Monday, January 30, 2017

when dawn came

Photo by Israel Sundseth
Courtesy of unsplash.com


when dawn came we knew in our hearts
that nothing would ever be the same
as the sun’s rays peaked through curtains
I knew I would lose you forever
the sun rose over horizons as you 
placed sweet goodbye kisses
upon my weeping lips


Thursday, January 26, 2017

season me

winter me with words
to cool my scorching heart
spring kisses upon my lips
to make our love bloom
summer on my shoulder
as we swim into sunsets
autumn my heart if you
decide to shed this love

- Inspired by dVerse Poetics prompt "Verbify me".

Cherry Blossom Schlossgarten Landscape
Photo by Inselines
Courtesy of all-free-download.com



Tuesday, January 24, 2017

railroad us

they try to railroad us
saying the cause is moot
we need to stop complaining
this is the way things are
they railroad our voices into boxes
forcing dreams into mason jars
but we stand united before the storm
welcoming whatever may come
with peace in our souls

Monday, January 23, 2017

waiting on the bus

she stands in the sun,
rain, fog, snow or wind
waiting for the bus to arrive
she watches cars drive by
drivers absorbed in their
own little cubicles as  
she stands there waiting
for her ride to come


Thursday, January 19, 2017

dawn is coming

Mount Tamalpais, United States by John Towner
Courtesy of unsplash.com


dawn is coming
and we are running out of time
dawn is coming
and will expose our dark shadows
dawn is coming
and will rouse us from our slumber
dawn is coming
to chase away last night’s love songs
dawn is coming
and you will soon leave my side
but when dawn departs
you will return to me once again


- Written for dVerse Meeting the Bar: I'll Say it Again (and Again and Again) where we play with repetition.  Come join the fun.