crush

a crush?

I’m too old for that

well that is what

I tell myself

I’m too old

to have such dreams

and butterflies

in my tummy

I’m too wise

beyond my years

to have tingling

sensations come

across my skin

wherever I hear

or see your name

no, I’m too old

for this feeling

I already know

how this will end

another scar

another disappointment

another what if to add

to my collection box

but here I am

with this sensation

overwhelming me

covering my head

like high ocean waves

and I cannot stop

myself or this feeling

overtaking this heart

I thought long dead

a crush?

I’m too old for this 

aren't I?